August 22, 2014 || Calm before the storm.
A candid picture together with my Tokyo roommates. :)
Picture taken at Imperial Palace, Tokyo, Japan.

August 22, 2014 || Calm before the storm.

A candid picture together with my Tokyo roommates. :)

Picture taken at Imperial Palace, Tokyo, Japan.

August 15, 2014 || Bionight: DEKA @ Centris, QC

Fun party with fun company. Fun never stops with these bunch of people around. :)

August 10, 2014 || Part two of intense review.

Gonna reward myself with the UAAP ADMU vs UE replay after this :)

#OBF #Magis

August 10, 2014 || Part two of intense review.

Gonna reward myself with the UAAP ADMU vs UE replay after this :)

#OBF #Magis

Anonymous asked: "Can you really say you're happy and contented with the course you've taken? What are your honest thoughts on the path you're treading right now? I hope this didn't sound too much, but I really am curious because I am in a dilemma right now. Thanks. ☺"

Hi, anon! Sorry for replying to you late. But here’s my answer to that:

As of this moment, I can say that I /am/ contented with my course, but there are just those occasional moments wherein I’d think that I would have done much better if I had chosen a BS course or anything with Math in it (because I think that’s where my forte lies). I actually wrote a blog entry about this before (link is here), and if you read that, you will understand my struggles in my chosen major. But then again, even if it crossed my mind to shift, I did not, and I have two main reasons. First, it is too late for me to shift, especially now that I’m in my junior year and even going on JTA. Shifting is not part of the option already and besides, I do not want to extend another year anymore. Second, I have learned to love my course, bit by bit. Well, not completely, but I’m getting there. I don’t know, but I’m starting to appreciate my major subjects especially this semester. Maybe it also has something to do with the fact of how concentrated this semester is for my majors that I’m starting to absorb the fact that I am indeed a student of Diplomacy and International Relations. I think it is just a matter of getting used to it.. but then it still depends on the person. For me, staying in this course made me /love/ it.

Anon, if you feel like you’re having second thoughts with your course, my advice for that is, try to see if you are enjoying your major subjects or not. I know this is a strange advice, but then again, it is the only way of knowing whether you’re willing to stick around much longer or not. If you like what you are learning from them, then grow from those. If not, maybe it’s time you grow in a different field. I’m not saying this to discourage you; I just want you to choose what you think is best for you, because this decision of yours will truly matter in the long run. 

I wish you best of luck, anon. :)

August 9, 2014 || It’s time to work a little harder.

August 9, 2014 || It’s time to work a little harder.

You like to be alone when you fight with your parents. Either that, or you would go to your cousin’s place and stay there until you find your peace of mind.

You are allergic to one of my favorite foods. I have never shared a meal with you containing that ingredient because I don’t want you to get red for the rest of the day.

You are a logical person. From that, you believe in the philosophy of practicality over sentimentality. You weigh the benefits and disadvantages before making a decision. You reject offers of hanging out if you believe that the plan is unclear or unpractical. This sometimes triggers negative responses from others, but hey, that’s your decision, and it isn’t something others can make for you.

You are a logical person, but when you let emotions take over you, you become extremely impulsive. You do not like your weakness to get exposed, but when it does, you become extremely fragile. Maybe that was the side I was able to see in you. You are fragile. But you choose to be strong. You are firm, manipulative, and unfaltering, not because you want to, but because you have to. But hey, weaknesses are what makes us human, and all the more beautiful. I see the beauty in you. I just hope you’ll let me see it once again.

I had inherited your smile. Your smile without they eyes. It’s fun and adorable. That’s why I do it too.

You love your parents and siblings so much. You are not hesitant to say ‘I love you’ or kiss them on their cheeks. Such affection makes you a lovable son. But then again, there are times when you could not prevent a sibling rivalry to ensume. From just a simple I-won’t-let-you-borrow-my-stuff to you-are-the-worst-sister-ever, you get angry just like how you normally do when you’re mad. But you would say sorry. And that’s one of the things a sibling could ever hope to hear from her brother.

You prefer chill nights than dramatic ones. Who wouldn’t? You’d rather be in good and fun company than in quiet, nostalgic ones. Maybe, I learned to do that too. Now.

The most important lesson I learned from you is that, people are different. You and I are two distinct entities. What binds us from people are not actually the similarities, but the willingness to get connected to them. At some point in our two distinct lives, we got connected.

And that’s all I ever need to know.

The you and I right now is something I cannot romanticize anymore. You just are. I just am. We’re on par.

July 20, 2014
7:33AM

1:16AM.

Personal issues, stop knocking at my door in the middle of the night. I NEED TO STUDY.

Complain less. Do more. 
Always remember that, Sam.

August 1-3, 2014 || Heart of Worship.

Can I just say how overwhelmed I am right at this moment.

Thank you, YFC, for letting me realize my weaknesses I have kept on denying since the beginning.

And I even want to thank this org more for making me change those ways.
Thank you for giving me the option to risk. Thank you for letting me build up the strength I have derived from this weakness.

I am afraid to risk. I remain stagnant. I remain satisfied with the wrong choice. I have been living with it for eighteen years now.

And I think it is now the right time for me to change those ways.

Thank you, YFC, for helping me risk. Thank you for not failing me. Thank you for the gift of companionship and friendship.

Thank you for the people in it. Thank you that they have become my closest friends. Without them, I wouldn’t have been able to share my frustrations and insecurities and dilemmas in life. Thank you for each and everyone of them. No biases. No judgment. Just understanding and an open heart to listen.

YFC has got to be the best org that has ever happened to me.
I don’t know what I would be without it.

"I’m coming back to the heart of worship,
And it’s all about You,
It’s all about You, Jesus.”

July 24, 2014 || Hot and cold.

AHHH Another text post horray!!!

I don’t have anything particular to talk about, but I just feel like making an entry because it’s boring in the library and I want to procrastinate my POS130 readings WHICH WE WILL DISCUSS IN 5 HOURS.

Okay anyway, I’m terribly, terribly hectic this week. And next week. And the week after that. Until forever. HUHU just kidding. Maybe it’s just a matter of time management. Apparently, I suck at that. So yeah.

Hmm, one update I can think of right now is that I’m in the process of submitting my VISA documents for the Harvard PAIR Asia Conference this August 22-26. Wow, less than a month until I set foot on my favorite place again. <3 Also, we already have an apartment to stay in as well as the flight itinerary. I will be going to Japan together with my blockmate and APAIR orgmates. I think this will be one heck of an adventure for us, especially for me since it will be my first time to travel to a different country without my family. AHHHHH ADVENTURE AWAITS ME <3

So anyway, this whole week is our YFC Tambay Week. It’s fun knowing a lot more people/friends right now! Newly-recruited members are slowly becoming active and I’m getting excited to be close to them heheheheh. Camp will be on August 1-3, so that time will be the best time for me to know them more! yayy membersss

Our APAIR General Assembly + Game Night will also happen tomorrow. Glad that the venue for Game Night is just beside our condo, so my mom won’t have to worry if I come home late. HAHAH. I mean, seriously mom, I can take care of myself. Please don’t worry. :)

Yesterday was my bb’s 19th birthday. I still can’t get over the fact that we’ve been great friends for 2 years already. It felt like we’ve known each other for only 2 months. Time passes by without me even noticing it. And how we’ve grown. But heck, she’s still my best bb gf hoe best friend. Labyu bb even if you won’t be reading this. :))

Ahhhh I’m so hungry I need to eat hahahahhaha. Sorry for this super sabaw text post. I just want to talk and talk and talk. I miss you, Tumblr!

From freshie year to sophomore year to junior year with the best college girl best friend. :)

Happy 19th Birthday, Kay Chan!! I yabu forever and always. :))

Also ft. my hair transformation over the years heheheh